It was one of the days in my last week in Colombia and I was thinking about all the things I still had to do. I was living two days in one, almost the entire week! I was loving it, my body definitely wasn’t.
I was sleeping the bare minimum, eating on the go and managing schedules, walking a lot trying to complete the project I had started. In the midst of all the madness, I decided to take a break.
I took myself on a date. And I realized I had missed doing this for quite some time!
I chanced upon an amazing vegetarian restaurant in Medellin and to my surprise the cafe had live music with two super talented and passionate singers. (Highly recommend going there if you happen to be there) - both the food and people at the cafe are wonderful and the live music was the cherry on the cake. Though I could only understand bits and pieces of the song, the music was so alive! I only left when they packed up. Even now, listening to their soulful music transported me back to Medellin.
So is this a self-obsession or borderline narcissism?
Maybe it is. But one thing I have realized fairly recently is the importance of treating myself with kindness too. Sometimes I find myself not regretting but second-guessing my decisions, having high expectations and being critical of what I do. This translates to lower self-esteem which is not explicitly noticeable, but inside you know that feeling and it creeps up in the weakest moments.
At least for me, it takes a lot less effort if I am with myself the way I want to be with others. Because either it is a lot harder to pour from an almost empty cup or I seek someone filling mine up first. But if mine is brimming, it is bound to spillover! I don’t have to try too hard :)
So note to self today - yes, you are a work in progress, have a long way to go but take a moment to appreciate yourself, be kind, enjoy your company because no matter what happens and who enters and exits your life, you have YOU!
When was the last time you showed yourself some love?
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